Sudden Explosion..

This would be the best way to express what I feel, seriously when I write here I feel as if I’m telling someone all about what’s going on in my mind, for the fact that I can’t really find the right person to talk to about these issues..

Exams ended a few days ago, or as I should say, the so called “suffering” has ended.. To tell you the truth, during the exams I actually had things to do, unlike now, my time is filled with emptiness.. Hmm I have nothing to do, nowhere to go, except for a few places that I’m used to, but nothing new.. All the holiday plans are gone, I'm not leaving the country anytime soon, I’m losing my friends one by one and I still have this confusion of what I should study, and more importantly, where..!

So far, 4 of my best friends have left the country, and I’m not expecting to see any of them until atleast next year, except for one who has left for good.. A moment they were here, and the next they are gone.. The final good-byes were the worst, the moment when I had to let them go all together leaving me behind, not that they can do anything about it, but that was the seperation point.. I didn’t expect that I would find it this hard to accept that I'm not going to see any of them again.. I’ll miss the guys so much, everybody was telling me that the seperation point was very near, but I didn't prepare for it..

I can’t see all this happening to the people around me, all of what everybody cares about is the summer fun, well let's see, we went out a few times, then..? Atleast almost everyone is settling down already while I haven't even started..
My options are very hard and instead of thinking which option to choose, I'm searching for others..

Anyway, I better start looking at the bright side, I still have about 2 months to make my decisions, let's hope that I don't do anything stupid during this time..

Wish me luck..

Suffering...

I just figured something out.. Last year of school = Hell.. I seriously haven't seen anything like this, even when I'd see others going through this stage, I really didn't think that they were suffering this much..

Tomorrow is the first serious exam, and I'm online and I still have alot to do..
I have made a decision, I will study for the upcoming exams, but I will not give a damn about the marks.. Yes, I will just study, go write in the paper whatever I know, and leave.. This will be my main rule for the next 2 weeks..

I know that I'll be reading this later on, and I know that I'll be laughing at myself, thinking "What the hell was I doing..?" Later when reading this, I won't be feeling the stress that I have over my brains at this particular moment..

I have alot of time to study, but I simply can't hold the book for more than 2 hours MAX, I get bored fast, that's my problem..

Tomorrow is Arabic, the most useless subject EVER..! Don't you agree..? I still don't know how I'll get through Chemestry and Physics next week..

Time is ticking and it won't stop, not that I care anyway..

"12 days to go.."

Celebrating M987's Birthday

6/6/06.. Number of the beast.. And.. M987's birthday.. Even though we had exams, we needed to go out, firstof all it was the dude's birthday, second we really needed the break..

Dr Diablo, M987 and another dude (The legendary, lol) met at my place, we had some fun on Tekken (Yes I lost a couple of times.. Ufff!) then decided to leave for a coffee shop or something.. It was about 8/8:30 when we left, had a nice walk to Leewan's.. It was really fun there, we had sheesha, played chess, (I wanna mention that I beat all three of em', lol), had a few laughs, made fun of the third member with us, lol and we released all the stress..
Once we got high and couldn't think straight, we decided that it was getting late (12) and we had to have dinner since Dr.D's father will arrive any minute..

We left to Hooti's, had some burgers, made fun of the third member again, then reached home at 1 Am..

The whole thing was a really good break as it helped us forget all about exams for a while, and had the fun we've been waiting for since a while now..

Anyhow, I promised myself I won't leave home until exams are over.. The guys are making plans to go out again next week, but I can't afford leaving my books again.. I know that I don't study THAT much, but I won't go out and have fun while some work isn't done yet, I feel guilty when doing so and I won't have fun knowing that what I'm doing is definatly wrong and it will backfire really soon..

Happy Birthday again dude.. Good luck and god help us all.. :)

First Exam--------> Screwed..!!

Just came back from the first exam (Geo).. Yup, I screwed up..! Something seriously went wrong in there.. You know when you enter the examination room feeling good about the nights you spent studying when suddenly you are shocked by questions you have never seen before..? That happened to me this morning..

As they say, the first exam should be the best exam, as things become harder and harder later on, well if chemestry was harder than this, then I'd definatly fail it..!

I did cheat my brains off though, yes I really had to, even though I've always hated cheating, otherwise god knows what would've happened..

Anyhow, glad it's over, 18 days left.. Hope I don't shoot myself before the end..

Members in "Saw"..

I was really bored of studying the other day, and I started thinking about some movies, the first movie came to my mind was "Saw".. An amazing movie, one of my favorites.. Anyhow, I thought it would be a cool idea to put some Omanserv members into this movie, what do you think? I thought I should give it a try..

I wrote 4 of them and here's the best one.. I made it for M987:

"As he awakens by a sharp pain in his head, M987 couldn’t move his hands as they were tied behind his back, he still couldn’t see properly because of the long sleep that he had.. He knew that something was awfully wrong, he was sitting on a chair, his hands tied in a perfect way behind his back, he wasn’t able to move..In a couple of seconds, he could finally see properly infront of him, there was a table very close to him almost touching his chest, on that table was a book and a tape recorder..

M987 looks around him, trying to verify where he was, or if there was anyway he could shout for help.. Trying and trying, shouting and shouting.. There was no use..
The room he was in had only 1 door, but it was too far away as his steel chair was nailed to the ground.. Above that door, was a timer that had a 20 minutes countdown on it and a camera looking straight at him..

M987 realized that there was no escape, and wondered what that timer meant, so he decided to press the button on the tape recorder using his mouth..

After a couple of tries to turn it on, M987 succeeds and starts listening carefully:

“Good morning M987.. I know everything about you, wear you live, what you do for a living and all your connections.. I’m going to play a game with you, this game will either change your life forever, or it will kill you. The reason I created this game for you is the lazy life that you control, not understanding what good things you have that others don’t, the life that you have wasted not caring about your life.. Well, here is were I shall help you to fix that.. Look at the timer, you should have about 19 minutes left on it.
Infront of you is a 50 page physics book, a book that you have never touched or read, a book that others have suffered with while you laughed at them.. Now to succeed in this game, you should turn the pages of the book, study it, look all the way through it without using your hands, and at the end of this book, there is a question that you should answer, I’ll give you a hint, the answer is a 4 digit number that you can use to unlock the chains on your hands behind your back, since you can’t see it, the number on the chains at the moment is 0-0-0-0..Study, solve the question before the time is runs out..

If it does, that door will be locked forever..

Let the games begin..”

This Monster Lives..!

These are the eyes that can't see me
These are the hands that drop your trust
These are the boots that kick you 'round
This is the tongue that speaks on the inside
These are the ears that ring with hate
This is the face that'll never change
This is the fist that grinds you down
This is the voice of silence no more


These are the legs in circles run
This is the beating you'll never know
These are the lips that taste no freedom
This is the feel thats not so safe
This is the face you'll never change
This is the god that ain't so pure
This is the god that is that pure
This is the voice of silence no more

We the people?
Are we the people?
We the people?
Are we the people?

Some kind of monster
Some kind of monster
Some kind of monster

...

This monster lives

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Welcome to my blog.. Due to my suffering nowadays in the exams era (Yup, Thanawiya), I won't be able to update my blog until it sleeps..

You'll be hearing from me very soon.. Hayyakom..